Hill On The Horizon

There is a hill on the horizon, I just know it is coming. We have been having those days where good choices are not being made. We have focused a lot over the years about making good/smart choices and that our actions have consequenses. Right now were are in a melancholy mood and he has been keeping to himself today. Right now that is perfectly fine with me. Nothing much to argue about or trying to make him be compliant. You can actually have a conversation with him about his day. Smooth sailing and just what my day needed after having an exhausting early morning with his father, who I swear needs psychiatric help himself (maybe that should be my next blog, but who would look more crazy him or me for dealing with his crap- I got my vote).

Last night sparked a huge debate between his older brother and myself in regards to Caleb being allowed to get away with everything and of course it was blamed the bipolar disorder. There are 8 years in between Kyle and Caleb and nothing will change the fact that they are not close at all no matter what I try to do. And trust me I have tried. Kyle feels that Caleb gets away with a lot and feels almost bullied by Caleb. Caleb has his moments in the sun where he is quite difficult to deal with and talks sharp and carries an "I don't care" attitude. But I had to remind Kyle that at the height of his ADHD he was very careless and extremely over impulsive when doing things. I made lots of excuses for Kyle too about his behavior. It was never that Kyle intended on doing things to hurt them, but was careless in his action and other kids accidently got hurt. Kyle just feels that I should (physically) discipline Caleb more it Caleb hits Kyle. I feel like Kyle is too old to be hitting on Caleb and reminded Kyle that if he randomly went out and hit another 10 year old child he could be faced with criminal charges and more severe penalties because he is almost 18.

This is where it starts, what do you do? You see the changes coming and how do you stop going down hill. I have to think on this one. On one hand Caleb's behavior isn't in my opinion to terrible. Kyle says stuff happens everyday. I disagree. Kyle has been in his own little bubble, being a teenager, doing his thing. I have never asked him to shoulder any responsibility of being a "3rd Parent". Hell, Kyle never took on the role of being an older brother either.

I don't really know. Hell I don't have all the answers either. This will have to be revisited another day.