Starting Over

Let's see...  Been a few years since I have posted anything.  Lack of followers and such made me put the blog on the back burner.  I have decided to start again for me and maybe one day Caleb will be able to understand what the rollercoaster ride has been like.  Not only is this starting over for me but for him as well.  Could things come to a full circle?  Maybe.  I didn't expect things to come to this.  But they have.  Last summer Caleb and I made a collective decision to cease medication.  At his prime he was prescribed 300mg of ....2tabs 2x a day. That's a lot of meds for anyone let a lone a child.  Plus 60mg of..... Daily and meds for sleep.  Over 2012/2013 we cut down to just 300mg daily and kept the other meds the same.  No issues.  No meds on the weekends.  Doctor on board with decisions.  Then summer 2014 stop everything all together.  No problems. Beginning of school year, again no problems.  No huge outbursts,  no fits of rage,  no hostile moments.  Sure we had a few golden moments when he would get upset but nothing major to where I needed to run screaming for his doctor. It wasn't until a week before Christmas break that problems began to surface.  But as something new.  Something different.  So now we are back to the starting line.   Testing.  Damn all those questionnaires about you,  your family,  your life,  your kid and those "never,  rarely, almost, sometimes, occasionally and always questions". You know the questions.  And so time consuming to fill out.  Almost makes you think you're on trial or something.  And now that Caleb is older,  he is more aware that something is going on with him and he is not happy to discuss it.  Starting over sucks but I made my bed and I shall lie in it.